Porchmonkey why dont you man up (or woman up so to speak), stop confusing your problems further by procrastinating on this website and dump your bf, move in with your friend in KC or wherever it is, stop sucking dick for a living if you are in fact doing that (still unsure about that one but im not going to make any firm accusations), grow a bit of weed, go to the fuckn gym or something, eat some fruit and look for work. get back to the finer things in life and bring back your perspective, seeing as you obviously to have lost some perspective on your life. Or atleast keep this sorta shit in your own thread.
occasional joints i like now, once a time when i would have said bongs but theyre just a bit unsettling (bad for you) to be doing 20 times a day everyday.