To OP,
Welcome to RIU! What you are seeing is passion. The reality is that you are not doing anything wrong, because you don't realize that growing isn't as simple as just keeping a houseplant arrive. it is not difficult, but there is a lot to it if you want any yield.
No one can help you to grow and yeild if you don't have a setup. You need a tent or something of the sort. You need a bunch of lighting on a specific schedule. You need some degree of temperature control and ventilation. You need exhaust and odor control. You need a good medium. You need to understand the nute needs. There are a few starters.
People here are happy to answer specific questions for those who are working on a bonafide environment, no matter the size of the grow. But because we know there is no simple answer for someone like you, you get the animosity because there have been many like you.
Growing for personal supply has been wonderful for me and this site has helped a ton. Forget about growing one for shits and giggles. It will not work. but if you want to invest a bit of time and money, you can have an endless supply of great weed for nothing. And a hobby. So without intending to be an asshole, shit or get off the pot if you want to grow.
Peace!
