Don't worry about your lack of faith, just deciding you want to seek GOD is the start. GOD will reveal Himself to those who seek him diligently. Just read The Laws of righteousness and follow them, faith will follow. It would help you greatly to Read The Book of Enoch, Testament of Solomon and the HOLY BIBLE so you know what's going on. Start by follow the Laws of righteousness and you will be quickly on your way.
Sorry, but if you know your history then you would know the bible is a fairy tale. Christmas and Easter are pagan holidays, and any religion was simply a means to contorl ignorant people. In this day and age I cannot fathom how any educated person can feel otherwise.
Spirituality is something that will never be found in a church, and the concept of heaven is flawed. If there was a heaven, THIS IS IT! If there were angels they would envy our mortality.
And god made us in his image? That's rich... And god is a male? That doesn't even make sense.
Before christianity ruined everything that was good on this earth people use to worship the sun, the moon, the forest, and WOMEN!!! They call it paganism, but in reality paganism is beautiful and encourages spirituality and puts women on a pedestal(the one MOTHER earth). Christianity and it's holidays are all converted pagan holidays. That is why there is a easter bunny/eggs. Easter is a pagan holiday or fertility and the rabbit and eggs are symbols of this. Easter has nothing to do with an imaginary man.
Jesus was a cult leader and scam artist-just like any other cult figure.