AllDayToker
Well-Known Member
Hello RIU Members,
I am a 19 year old boy. I've been suffering from chronic depression, anxiety, and insomnia for 6 years now. Including suicide attempts, theropy sessions, days to weeks will a couple hours of sleep, and attacks that last all day. From all of this I've lost close to all my friends, and pretty much just can't do anything anymore. I've been on dozens of different pills, being prescribed so many and switching so much it tore up my stomach, barely got me to pass high school, and forced me to drop out of college. My so called friends steal and take advantage of me, taking a total of well over $2000 over the past year or two, in big amounts not small things adding up. Around when I turned 15 I was introduce to marijuana as something fun to do, and since then, 4 years later, I don't think there has been a day where I don't set aside countless hours of research. Now I don't take my prescribed pill medicine becauase of cannabis. But my life passion, goal, the only thing I want to do with my life for the rest of my life is grow for myself, and for dispensories, and then go past that and do whatever I can for the industries, it will truely be my life.
I have a very strong passion, to the point while I'm crying typing this, for cannabis and the industry that it consist of, especially growing.
Right now I live in a non-medical state, and with the senator we have now, and with the grant our state just recieved for dozen of no substance abuse programs, medical isn't going to be coming here anytime soon. I've done my own experiments with very low budget setups, because I'm not someone with a ton of money, but I've been told by growers that they don't know a lot of people that can grow that dank of bud in how horrible the conditions were, and I think I was straight born with a green thumb. My original plan was to move to California because I know some people out there, but the person I would be with isn't going to be growing much anymore because of dispensories closing. Now I'm sitting here, recently just getting robbed again at a party, in shock and pain. Realising I need to leave and forfill my dream, but now I'm left with not knowing what to do, how to start, or anything. I'm thinking Colorado now but i dont know,
If even one person in this whole forum community would take sometime to help me, you have no idea would that would mean to me. You would seriously be saving my life.
Please help,
Ben
I am a 19 year old boy. I've been suffering from chronic depression, anxiety, and insomnia for 6 years now. Including suicide attempts, theropy sessions, days to weeks will a couple hours of sleep, and attacks that last all day. From all of this I've lost close to all my friends, and pretty much just can't do anything anymore. I've been on dozens of different pills, being prescribed so many and switching so much it tore up my stomach, barely got me to pass high school, and forced me to drop out of college. My so called friends steal and take advantage of me, taking a total of well over $2000 over the past year or two, in big amounts not small things adding up. Around when I turned 15 I was introduce to marijuana as something fun to do, and since then, 4 years later, I don't think there has been a day where I don't set aside countless hours of research. Now I don't take my prescribed pill medicine becauase of cannabis. But my life passion, goal, the only thing I want to do with my life for the rest of my life is grow for myself, and for dispensories, and then go past that and do whatever I can for the industries, it will truely be my life.
I have a very strong passion, to the point while I'm crying typing this, for cannabis and the industry that it consist of, especially growing.
Right now I live in a non-medical state, and with the senator we have now, and with the grant our state just recieved for dozen of no substance abuse programs, medical isn't going to be coming here anytime soon. I've done my own experiments with very low budget setups, because I'm not someone with a ton of money, but I've been told by growers that they don't know a lot of people that can grow that dank of bud in how horrible the conditions were, and I think I was straight born with a green thumb. My original plan was to move to California because I know some people out there, but the person I would be with isn't going to be growing much anymore because of dispensories closing. Now I'm sitting here, recently just getting robbed again at a party, in shock and pain. Realising I need to leave and forfill my dream, but now I'm left with not knowing what to do, how to start, or anything. I'm thinking Colorado now but i dont know,
If even one person in this whole forum community would take sometime to help me, you have no idea would that would mean to me. You would seriously be saving my life.
Please help,
Ben
