I have had the best week ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Past two days have been incredibly difficult but on the plus side I was standing in line at a convenience store while out looking for weed. I start shooting the shit with this chick, and was like "yeah I can't find bud ANYWHERE!" and she was like "I got some diesel." So I bought a dub and got her name and number and grabbed weed from her again the other day and she is SO pretty...she's black...but like chocolate skinned, SO pretty. I guess I grew up in a really racist family and I let things slip sometimes. Anyway, she is HOT. I was like "want to grab a beer or something next weekend?" and she was like "yeah, get at me" or something. So I'm psyched but not letting it be like OCD. It's just...really cool, you know?
Then, this girl who owns a store down the street lent me $20 and a FAT sympathy bag of nugs...like 3 grams.
I also have really awesome news about something else that I can't talk about, and I'm really getting healthier and healing and I brake down but I'm trying to get through it with a cool head. Oh volunteered with a community center thing.
Go weed!!! and LOVE!!! Even if the love is gone it means there still is love out there, you just have to find it. So off I explore! My heart will take years to heal but I will do my best to meet new people and live life and don't take it for granted.

congrats

tldr

also, I've found that pot relaxes me SO much. It's SO helpful man..especially right now.

so here's my standing on pot - don't smoke during the day, use as sleep agent, deal with stress without using it and use it as a luxury for when there's a good movie on at midnight or something. And I guess for situations when someone really needs to be sedated. Use it like valium.
But I really can't smoke during the day anymore - it makes me ABSOLUTELY retarded...I lose like 50% of my brain function. I'm serious. Not to knock med users. I know people in pain or with diseases need cannabis to survive...but not me.

I like binging on a half to a full ounce, then taking a few week break. During the break I take Omega 3's which help the brain recover quicker over all, resulting in a better high.

Thats the secret to weed, its like any person. You treat her with respect, and she'll be good to you. Start abusing, and your memory starts to fuck up, you can start to get paranoid, and other little goodies.

I'm glad things are working out for you man.