Hey everybody :|

Pretty dramatic isnt it? Some of you might remember the last thread did where i bragged about how i saved a life?

well, lets see..what the fuck do i do? its hard to accept that in her mind she really wants to die if one person disapears.

I cant do it anymore you know? Another death another part of me dies.. Its hard to understand, its hard to comprehend. But its just really really gay..

Its 2:55 am and im loosing sleep because i dont know wheather she hasnt tried to kill herself..

I want to get away from here, if it wasnt for probation i would run away somewhere..

I could get a job as a carpenter in california, Finish up my major, and support her..

I dont care, as long as shes alright.. Its all that counts is her safety..

And i cant take another death anymore.. life isnt worth living if you lose another good friend.

This person i could gladdly say i would give up everything for..

she just doesnt know it..

thanks for reading, im gonna go lie down and think it out.

Sounds like you're having a rough time

Suicide is just selfish if you ask me.

Yeah i agree, but the answer she gave me was "it wont matter to me, ill be dead"

it sucks but meh..its really hard

I feel for you. I had a friend who was really fucked up after his mom died. He blamed himself and always talked about killing himself. I used to really worry about him, and it upset me and I would try to talk him out of it and talk to him and yadda yadda yadda.

I told him suicide is selfish and that it hurts the people you leave behind and all that jazz. He didn't care. And that pissed me the fuck off. So I told him that if he was going to kill himself, and he doesn't care that it would hurt me, then I would have to look out for myself and distance myself from him. I told him if he ever really killed himself I didn't want it to hurt as bad.

He never tried. He got over it.

It's sad, but the ones who are serious about suicide generally don't tell anyone about it. When people talk about killing themselves it's usually a "cry for help" Every case of suicide that I know of (like know of personally) the person never said anything, no one expected it.

i had a buddy that tryed to kill himself by crashing his car in a tree

he called me at 2 in the morning standing on the edge of a 6 story building saying he was worthless about to jump suffering form a slight conccusion after crashing..

i told him to come to my house and i made him stay in my basement and made him realize that he is worth something to a lot of people

scary stuff

I had a friend that shot himself right in front of me. its not something i want to see ever again. sometimes people need to be told to stop feeling sorry for themselves and look around at the people they are hurting by being so introverted. hell i've been through a lot of shit in my life but i don't think about ending it just because things are shitty. its also my understanding the ones who say they are going to do it usually don't. when my friend killed himself i was clueless he never mentioned that he had problems or that he was contemplating suicide.

they just need to sit down, smoke a blunt, and think about the good things in life

Have you even asked her out? If not, what are you waiting for? I wouldn't waste time thinking about it when I could drive to her house and ask her out right then & there.

have faced this alot. u need to ask them if they have thought about how they would do it? if they have a plan...turn them in. i have lost one friend to suicide and i have hospitalized 3. the three are still alive! u r not equipped to resolve their issues and there are people who are trained for this. good luck!