i've been on a LOT of meds lately. pain meds and anti anxiety meds. i took my pain meds and topped it off with a valium last night. it was about 11:00ish or so. my wife was next door at her moms. i was inside on my laptop in the living room. i stepped outside to have a smoke. i was out in my garden and it was kinda cold so i laid down in my tent with my sleeping bag and all my blankets. i remember drifting off for a second and popping back awake and thinking "i better not fall asleep". the next thing i know i woke up at 3am. the first thing i thought was "where's that cigarette i was smoking". i found it burnt into my sleeping bag this morning. it was pretty much a butt when i dosed off with it in my hand so it burnt out before killing me in my sleep.
i don't know how i feel about this.
the worst part is my wife came home from her moms and saw my laptop still on, my heating pad still on and my cold soda next to the couch. she shut everything down for me and just went to bed. i could have been in the backyard burning and she would have never know.
i don't know how i feel about this.
the worst part is my wife came home from her moms and saw my laptop still on, my heating pad still on and my cold soda next to the couch. she shut everything down for me and just went to bed. i could have been in the backyard burning and she would have never know.
