No way I'm juicing buds!!! Will do leaves that I normally throw away. I guess leaves work good for the medicinal part as they don't have hardly any thc at all, just packed with cannabinoids. Thanks for the input fellas. We will find out soon enough as I'm getting ready to harvest and there are a SHIT TON of fan leaves in there.
whodat. thought of you last night as I was delving into the mystical world of jazz. See I've never liked jazz. I just don't get it. Seems all weird to me, no meter to it, I mean I can hear a beat, and a rythym, but it's all wonky... not strait. I can't follow it. Can't dance to it. It doesn't follow the rules, and I don't know how to do things when I'm not following rules (most of the time at least). Even when I was in the damn jazz band in high school... I loved the sax parts as they were rockin but even then I didn't like the swing of it, or the non swing, whatever you want to say about it. Never never never 'got' jazz.
I've been reading a book on meditation lately. The past month maybe (i read WAY slow) and I'm getting a lot from it. I'm really getting the essence of meditation which is "simply" to remove everything, remove 'you', just be left with nothing, being empty, and then life can happen as it does with no resistance, judgements, reactions... it just happens and we get to experience it. And enjoy it. In it's pure form. Just pure beauty. A strait connection to the universal soul, unadulterated.
Last night I was playing guitar for my little Hannah, we were both a little sick and the guitar was just what she needed. A nice soothing distraction for her eyes and ears. Well she was enjoying it so much I ran out of material. Got sick of playing all the songs and riffs I know and have been working on. And I just started playing (woah... getting goosebumps now recounting it). I just played man... and after a few minutes I heard myself playing.... and it was magic... it was pure.... it was jazz.
I finally get it. I've heard people talk about jazz and what it means, what it is. They say stuff like I said above, that it's music in it's purest form, that it's pure soul. I just couldn't get it. I was listening with complicated ears. I just needed to drop the rules, drop the effort, drop everything and just be. Just be with the music, let it take me on a journey wherever it took me... not just a familiar trip through the same old sights. I could feel it in my fingers. I could feel the connection from the greater being, offering up musical ideas, which I for once allowed to flow freely though my body, in order to come out of the guitar I held, so that Hannah could hear what the universe had to offer her at that moment.
It's deep man. It blew my mind and is blowing my mind. I feel like life is just starting, like a door has been opened I've been waiting my whole life for. Like it's all falling into place.
It's really beautiful. Just all of it. I'm really in love with life. And I really love having you guys such a part of it. I mean it. You guys are great to share life with.