I ask from all of you a moment, please.
In the first post I put on this thread, the now-deleted post #58, I wrote something that I saw and intended as a matter of simple disagreement with Annie. It has been brought to my attention that what I actually did was far worse. I offered insult. I was ignorant of the real shape of the deed at the time, but that in no way exonerates me. Stupidity is every bit as bad as malice, of which (mlice) I want to assure you all that I had none. I was however stupid without mitigation or excuse. The responsibility for stupidity is all mine, alone, without anyone's participation.
I didn't realize that I'd disagreed with Annie's factual information. Let me be plain: I admit and declare that she is dead right. A transgender is born biologically male and remains histologically so throughout his lifetime. Surgery changes the surface but not the phenotype. Obviously.
I challenged this incorrectly. I rescind.
In doing so, I brought great offense to a friend whose regard I have now lost.
This gives me real grief, and to that person I abjectly, unconditionally and comprehensively apologize.
Annie, I do not ask or expect that you will forgive me. But for whatever it my be worth (and I hope but daren't expect that to be any more than zero) , i am sorry. I brought great offense, and I accept the responsibility for it and for the injury to my own honor.
I am truly sorry. I hold the blame and the burden for the act, and I regret it. I do not ask you or anyone on this board to forgive me, but simply to know that I submit to the reality of what i did. That I intended no harm has no ultimate bearing. All that matters is that I did bring terrible offense, and that there is nothing I can do to repair it. But please understand that my respect for Annie's knowledge and essential correctness outweighs my ... anything. That is all, and I wish everyone here, especially Annie to whom I have unwantingly but quite really brought insult, the best. I accept my disgrace without condition, only shame. That is not who i ever thought or wanted myself to be.
So in a nutshell:
Annie. I have done an ugliness before and to you.
I am sorry, and would do all to erase or redeem it.
I am sorry.
sincerely, cannabineer