I didnt want to put this in T&T as itd get bent over like a dick with an obese hooker.
I was addicted oxycodone specifically for 4 years, prescribed to my better half so it was free. We used to get so high and play call of duty, I remember times wed be playing and id fall asleep smoking a cig burn myself while my character is running into a wall!!! "Good times."
We moved to a city for COLLEGE, ended up getting addicted to heroin since it was much cheaper (we lost our script.) I have now been 2.5 years clean, on methadone for 3 years. I go 6 days a week, an hour round trip every fucking morning plus it costs 110$\week. I have an awesome job and am lucky for my position there. I recently started drinking daily after work, everything was "fine" until this morning where I got a breathalyzer and failed, meaning I dont get my daily dose.
Im currently tapering, so missing even one dose put me into a slight withdrawl. My mom passed away from alcohol and my dad was a liquorhead himself. (Just made that word up.) Drugs have put my world upside down, dam near litteraly and I am always paranoid about tickets that need to be paid (Cant have random warrant as I grow illegally.)
I dont talk to anyone I grew up with as they all identify with some sort of hustle\drug and I wonder why I talked to them in the first place. Im not normally someone who makes threads like this, Im just in a bad spot and I guess want to see what people have to say whether you been in my shoes or not.
Im @123mg of methadone and going down slowly at 2/mg a week. Please dont bash me, Im really a good person under this cloak of addiction.. Im half drunk now or I wouldnt even post this so please understand where im coming from. Thank you.
